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Alhamdulillah the IMAM simposium is settled..it’s great experience to be an usher..but i dont really satisfy with what ive done…huhuhu..feel quite stress though and feel down with myself now…with the project..study( all the things to memorize n understand)..emotion thingy..sum to restless..huhu..where’s the focus that i have last sem??..Ya Allah..give me strength to go through the hurdle..during the simposium..our DG of Health saying about excellent..dont get too complacent..guess i have not using my time useful..thus complicate matter more which is already there(project n study)..huhu..Dr Nik Abidin also saying about 4 C’s and im attracted to the Confident part…when i look my day during jasin time..i was really a confident person..full with courageous n extreme determination…but now i dont feel it anymore..is it because of my frens?..the environment or myself??..but of coz i cant blame other though..i was the one who suppose to adapt n solve the problem..huhu..really miss good old days in jasin..with the encouraging frens..funny n helpful..i must work,study smart n hard..so that i could increase my self esteem..which is deteriorating..semangat semangat semangat…fokus fokus fokus..i need to help myself as i cant rely too much with my fren..they have their own agenda though…sometime they could be very nice n sometime they just break my heart…maybe i feel stress coz i dont have a really true person so called friend who can laugh n cry together in Dublin unlike in jasin n kmb…Ya Allah..pls guide me to be a good muslim student n doctor..and give me peace in my heart..
p/s: shoud i act as normal or be very friendly or be selfish??…it just another 2 months before i could breathe in my home sweet home air…huhu

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